The Insanity

I am at 5 1/2 out of 8 weeks of Insanity. They weren't lying when they said it was an extreme workout program. The schedule is that you workout extremely hard 6 days a week for 63 days. In addition you follow the nutrition guide which gives you choices for your 5 meals a day to reach your predetermined caloric needs. All meals are protein packed to help you fuel your body for the insane workouts.

The reason I began this workout program was I was becoming disgusted by the baby pouch that jiggled when I walked. I also knew that the program was hard and wanted to gain confidence in myself for completing it. The first month I followed the plans pretty much to a T. Although, I did have a few treats that were off limits.

I'm making this post now because I am pretty much pooped out on "digging deeper" and cannot follow through with the 63 days as the program is written out. I am back to basically eating what I like, although I have added some items from the guide that I like to my usual eats. I took a few days off from working out and when I do the workouts I take it easy on myself. I take a break to pet my cat that joins me every night, circling me hoping I will remember by first baby needs some love too.

I plan to continue doing the workouts when I can, but not to the point of making myself upset over it like I was the first month. I am not disappointed in myself for not completing the program as strictly as I had intended. I worked out harder than I have in my entire life and have received excellent results. This program is about getting stronger and I know that I have. I went from 8 to 21 push up jacks in a minute! I have never seen my arms look this toned. I still have the baby pouch when I am not flexing my abs but I would much rather keep it than go back to my old stomach and life without my daughter.

And FYI, sometimes no matter how much you work out your weight stays where its at. I believe our bodies have a weight that they like to remain at. At least my body does. My body returned to that weight after I had Aurora without much work and with all the work I've been doing hasn't budged. Sometimes I have fantasised that I would be able to say that I was 110 pounds. But guess what, I never will. At least not without starting crack of something else equally awful. So, I embrace my weight. I accept my body and am thankful for the life it allows me to live.

Do I smell bad or something?

Let me begin by saying I am a believer in the restored gospel of Jesus Christ and I see so much good contributed to the world by the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and its true followers. I will never allow the poor behavior of people in the church to weaken my belief in the doctrine. That leads me to the real reason for this post.

Why is church the place I feel the most invisible? I was seriously fine today, even with all the extra whining Aurora did due to her cold and/or teething, until I went to Relief Society. Shouldn't we be extra aware of the need to be Christ-like and reach out when we are in the Lord's house. As I smiled and said hi many ladies were closed off and barely responsive. I started to feel like there was something wrong with me. Brady and I both felt this way at the ward Halloween party. This is really concerning to me because this is not the first ward I have felt like this in. In fact, besides this ward all of the others I have gotten this cold feeling from were in Utah, Mormon Central. I have not found any trouble making conversation with women in MOPS, which is also a Christian based group. I don't have any trouble getting a smile back when I take Aurora to Gymboree classes. So what is the deal? I may be preaching to the the entirely wrong crowd because I know that the regular readers of my blog do not have a problem reaching out to others. You have all been very kind to me. I am just dumbfounded as to how many members in our church can consider themselves disciples of Christ while they give off the cold shoulder.

Stop and Fall

Fall Bucket List

I wanted to do lots of fun things this Fall since it would be the first one Aurora would actively participate in. I was happy to find this Fall Bucket List with lots of great ideas. I've gotten to most of the easy ones. We've done tons of nature walks. We played with a leaf pile and made leaf art. Sadly apple picking and going to a pumpkin patch were planned but for one reason or another cancelled and now its too late in the season. I would still like to make s'mores and have a picnic before winter comes.

Here Aurora is decorating her first pumpkin.

Here are our finished pumpkins.

I took Aurora trick-or-treating for the first time. She said thank you for the first couple houses. What a sweet little girl.

Loving her candy!

We went to Pumpkin Madness at Cox Farms today. You bring your old pumpkins and they drop them from way up high, catapult them into the lake, or smash them with the tractor. They also had hayrides, a corn maze, animals, and lots of slides.

Here we are on the hayride.

Riding the slides.

And going through the corn maze.

It was a great time!

Its been a beautiful and precious Fall.

What did you do for fun?